Jakob got sick

Wednesday afternoon when I felt from instinct that Jakob's fever isn't just about teething. I had a speculation that something else is bothering him. That's why it really pays to teach your toddler about body parts so you'll have an idea where he might be having problems or why he's fussy. I thought it could be ear infection, or sore throat or tummy ache. But what's puzzling about Jakob's fever is that he shows no other signs of possible infection. No vomiting, no colds or cough. So, at dinner time, he started getting really fussy. He couldn't get a good nap as he wakes up every 10 minutes and cry. I told Peter that there might be something else. But Peter said it's his teeth. So around ten in the evening, I decided to check his temperature again and it just went to 105F. I wasn't comfortable. I just don't want to be left alone when things got worse. And I don't want to wait for worse. So at eleven in the evening, we were at the Emergency Room to have Jakob checked. Good thing, it didn't take us a long while to be there. We were attended promptly. I was glad. The doctor came right away and checked his ears but found nothing. But when he checked Jakob's throat, he saw that red big throat which may be causing the high fever and lack of appetite. I was a bit relieved that there was a sign of something. Because a few weeks ago, a distant relative of ours who has a one year old girl had high fever too and was suspected to have leukemia. But good thing (thank God), it wasn't that. I didn't know what happened after but the fever went down and she was sent home.
In the midst of all these, I just felt how important it is to be with my son while he's growing. I felt I made a smart decision two years ago and decided to come to the US right away, and be with my husband. I just thought who would take care of Jakob if both me and Peter are working and can't just leave our jobs. So, I guess it's all a matter of balance. You get to lose some, and earn some. For me, I earned looking after my son and making sure he gets better. I hope he does, as the fever went down to 98.8 this morning.
I barely slept for the past three days, but it's so surprising that I don't feel that I need some sleep. There, I realized this is how it is to be a mother. You don't feel pain when you want to make sure your little one is alright. I also salute my husband for being there all the time given his very tight schedule. And always ready to do my favors in the middle of the night while Jakob is fussy or relentlessly crying.
I was talking to my mom last night and told her I wished she was here to help me out cause it's really hard being with a sick kid all by myself. I can't do much. I didn't even take a bath for two days! But, I appreciate the learning. I am grateful for the kind of support I have here. My husband, my sister-in-law who's always so willing to buy Jakob food and some stuff. I am just thankful.
Topping it all, I also learned that this time, I should know better. The copy of the table for proper medication and reducing fever is already in the fridge door. We found that that the fever medication we're giving Jakob is underdose that's why his fever is sky high. It's tough being a parent? Yeah, it is. I was wondering if I can still have one more. This is just a speck of the journey, I wonder how will I be and what I will write about when Jakob turns 18.